TifLyn Designs

Hello again - to anyone who visits, LOL...
Today is January 1st, 2009! And I am excited to start a new year. I pray this year is better. We need a healthy and better year financially too. So many times have I made "New Year Resolutions" - so many times have I not followed through... I stopped making them because I don't. And I won't make one this year either. I just say now that I hope the New Year is better and try to make each day a better one. What I need to remember to do is be thankful for all the wonderful things (and people) in my life and stop dwelling on what's not so wonderful. Easier said than done. But it's still my goal, and will remain one. The expression "A work in progress" well - that fits my life in so many ways. And yes, work is a four-letter word! LOL!
I changed my blog today. Love the pretty bkgound paper I used before, but just too distracting to read the posts. I love everything about the blog set I used from Kimberly Stewart. As for now I will not change anything else. Honestly, it was too darn hard to figure it all out the 1st time!
New Year - I am inspired by so many other bloggers I visit to actually write in mine. No, I don't have the freebies I love to gather from theirs - but that's not all I gather from them. Scrapbookers in general I have found to be just beautiful people. I love to read their blogs as much as I love their freebies! Stories posted about their special events and every day events. Well, I don't feel my life is so special most days - but there are some wonderful days too! And I need to start recording them for myself. So this blog is not so much for everyone else to enjoy - but something for myself. And since life isn't always so happy, I suppose my blog won't be either. But I need to record that too...
One of my favorite blogs is DeDe's. She posts a "high/low" for each week. And she's working on a new project "Digital 365" in which she will post every day and take a picture everyday... I am in awe of her even stating she intends to do this project - let alone actually do it! Inspiration comes from all around us. We just need to open our eyes sometimes. DeDe has inspired me so many times with her blog and how she manages to get through tough times and I smile at her stories of fun times! (Plus her freebies are top notch! LOL!) Of course, I found her because of her incredible talent of designing digital scrap kits and such. Her TearZ are my favorite digital bears ever!
I won't even say I'd commit to such a project. Because I know I'd fail. But I can say I'll try harder to blog. Or at least document my life somehow. Scrapbook pages are so awesome for that. I love taking pictures (anyone who knows me may say I take too many, lol). And I have already promised myself to organize them better and backup my harddrive. I need to copy to DVD for family. And I am trying. I focus too much on the details sometimes to be time proficient... I don't know. But hopefully if I work a little each day, then I can get a lot farther! OMG, just like my house cleaning and organizing wishes... So overwhelming I get discouraged. But a little each day isn't so hard... Maybe....
Of course there are "setbacks" and times I want to give up. Remaining positive is not always easy for me. Has been a struggle my entire life. Depression. Oh how much I hate that word and what it entails! Seems to have plagued me my entire life. And in fact it has in one way or another. My mother battled with it when I was small. Was it learned behavior that I developed it? Or really a chemical imbalance? Will I turn out to be like my mom is now? Oh, I have so many fears. I prided myself on being like her when I was younger. I strived to be like her. I was so proud of her and all she did for us as a single mom. Will I develop the same problems she has now? Oh God, I pray not!
New Years Day 2009 - well, I have posted a lot so far without really saying much, lol. I was so sick for New Year's Eve last night. I am so bummed about that. (some sort of stomach bug - ick) So it was not the bestest New Year's Eve... But I was with my favorite person, so not so bad really! Thank goodness for Rich. He has blessed my life in so many ways. And makes me happier than I have ever been! Not perfect and we need to work on so much in our lives, but I guess that's how life works. So anyways, being sick yesterday and today being sickish still - I would not ever take a picture a day starting today anyways! LOL!
I did what I wanted and posted. Now back to collecting more scrapbook freebies, catching up on my favorite blogs and organizing this harddrive!
Hugs, Tif